Heart Break?

How do you deal with a broken heart? You cry and you scream and you act pathetic. You skip out on showers and lay in bed for days on end. You have pity parties. You get irritable and you push everyone away. You cry in bed, you cry in the shower, you cry in your car. You let your heart ache. You let the pain throb and pulse through your entire body. You blame them, you blame yourself with “What if I did this…would we be together?” You pretend you’re getting better, only to have a relapse. You drink irresponsibly in hopes that you’ll forget them for one night. However this will only backfire and you’ll end up crying harder trying to drunk dial them. You consider giving up on life. You gather the strength to get up and take a shower, only to break down once you start the water. You attempt to completely remove them from your life, you attempt to bring them back into your life, you can’t bear being around anyone or anything, because everything around you reminds you of them. You watch romance movies and listen to love songs, then you listen to I will survive by Gloria Gaynor. You have your good days and you have your bad days. You distract yourself at times and other times you sit semi comfortably with your misery. You wait for them to come back, no matter how unrealistic that is. You wait until one day you wake up and the sun shines a little different. The wind grazes you and there’s a slight spring in your step. One day you catch yourself laughing genuinely, and things seem okay. You go out with friends and family again, except now you’re not distracting yourself anymore. You still have those Saturday nights when you sob while watching the notebook while wondering if they’ll ever come back. But the feeling doesn’t last. You wake up on sunday feeling alright again. Happiness will grow again, it just takes strength & patience.

-Nick Mercado <3  

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